Family, To Forgive Or Not To Forgive...It Depends.

     My last post was filled with pain and disbelief, I had been wronged. Now ordinarily I would have let this go by now but this has put such an  horrendous glitch in my life that is has put my survival in question. And the thing is I am an innocent party who has become a victim of one mans hurt, fragile ego. What has me spinning the most is that we are family and we were taught the same values and respect for family.
     You know the old saying that family is the one who will stick the knife in you the hardest and the deepest. I have been a listening ear for many of my friends who have been wronged by a family member and each one of them felt the same as I did, utter disbelief. And as time goes on they put it in the back of their minds and forgive and forget for the sake of family...why? Because that is what they have been taught, to let someone slap the shit  out of you and turn the other cheek because you are a better person and they are FAMILY...bullshit.
     Within the last several years I have come to believe that some of those old passive teachings that we were taught growing up does not hold water in today's world. Now I can't blame the parents because that is what they were taught and perhaps they found out later in life like I did that things are not that black and white that the grey area does exist. My family the Boyds always had a motto that we are family and we are all that we have,and we have to love and cherish and be there for one another. And that is how I have always felt about my family, until now.
     Don't get me wrong I am not holding my entire family accountable for one person's actions but when it comes to that forgiving and forgetting crap not this time, not when you maliciously put my life and survival in jeopardy and worse yet will not own up to what you did that is the act of a coward. While I try to repair some of the damage that has been done I can only hope that my family member gets the help he needs so that he can have a peaceful life. I will rebound and I will continue to move forward this will not stop my life's progress but one thing is for sure I will forever keep my distance. Well until next time share the love.

drea D

WHEW,DAMMIT!

Again it has been awhile since my last blog. That is because life has been doing its thing. After going through a season of goodness and joy, the season has taken a turn. Yes life is full of adversities and as long as we are alive we will go through from time to time I get that, but it seems that when it happens I am never prepared. For the last few years I have been on a new journey as I have talked about in my past blogs. The journey has been something revitalizi and positive I thought that "hey my life is finally going the way that I have always imagined, I was on the path of my life's purpose. Then all of the sudden BANG! up jump the boogey. Murphy's Law has invaded my life. I am cashed strapped I recently had to take a job that is definitely less than what I am used to, I really have to hustle. Then a family member stabbed me so deep that I am still reeling from it and things are piling up and I can't do anything about them and did I mention that my love life is still non-existent. But the part that really bothers me is that my passion and dreams have once again taken a back seat to life's bullshit. I am deep into writing my first novel and it is good but I have not been able to put pen to paper lately because I am trying to survive. I have already been down this road time and time again and here I go again back down once more. Now I know that everybody is going through something and I feel for us all but I am so ready to exhale that I really can't think of any ones else's problems I don't want to. That has been one of my problems in the past worrying about other people's shit and ignoring my own just to make them feel better. Those days have been over for a long time for me. I have to take care of drea. So once again I start over or is it starting over or is it me still moving forward. That remains to be seen as I will not give up and I will not stop pursuing my passion I have come to far. Well let me stop here I just needed to vent, it helps. So until next time lets pray for each other.          drea D