Spoon Fed

Where did the money go?...Lord please help me!!!
     For the last several months, I have been asking myself this question and looking for an answer. I would say, I know that I am living my life the way that you want me  to and I am exercising my PDP (perseverance,determination,patience),and still my financial situation seems to be getting worse. Why? I ask, Why? I know that I am not alone in this, because everyone from family to friends to strangers have been asking the same question and not getting the answers that they seek. But in the meantime seeing life as they have known it change, even in this so-called post recession. Well, recently I have received an answer and it came from my hairstylist Donna Stanton.
     I hadn't seen Donna in about two months, due to the cost effective hairstyle that I now wear. We were chatting as we usually do, and I was telling her of my bleak financial situation. She told me that she could relate to what I was going through. But she had an answer, and that was that we were being spoon fed that's right God was spoon feeding us because we had been living a life of abundance and not being grateful enough for what we had. We were living above our means and not showing enough humility. My how the mighty has fallen.
     I found this conversation a little ironic, because just a few weeks before, a friend and I had come to the conclusion that we were being punished for letting our wants get the best of us. We had basically said the same thing as Donna, but for some reason when she said it, it hit home and made more sense. I thought about how I didn't let money be an issue. I bought what I wanted, I spent what I wanted, I took vacations like I wanted, I did what I wanted to do because I could and did not think twice about it. Damn. And now God is spoon feeding me. Giving me a little at a time, just enough of what I need, no more and no less but just enough. Another lessoned learned.
     As I have said in one of my previous blogs that one of the greatest gifts that we were given is the power of change. I do see the error of my ways. And in closing, I want to say thank you Ms. Stanton for deoderizing the funk that had surrounded me. Till next this is.....dreaD